Experiencing others feeling... :-)

Today saw a mail in my official mailbox from a known person but with whom I dont interact regularly. Mail said "marriage sweets at my desk." I was surprised as I didn't see that girl going for long vacation for her wedding. I was definitely curious....

And suddenly I saw her near pantry. I went to her and immediately questioned popped out of my mouth.." Hey, did you get married...??!!!" She replied.. yes and started telling me about how and when all this happened... In these few minutes I obeserved her mehandi, bangles, new salwar kurta and most important and her eyes... eyes filled with joy and happiness... Eyes telling you about her heart.... :-) 

I have always known this girl as a quite person. She will talk only if required (may be that much I know about her). But it was pleasant feeling to see her with so much of joy... A joy shown from smile, eyes and body language... It literally made me happy tooo... I felt like I am only telling someone that "yes, I got married..!!"

This incident again made me realize that happiness is not only about us or related to us.... We can experience extreme happiness in others too... :-)

Photo courtesy : A gleam of dreams

My way of being happy... :-)

After 2 long years today I decided to paint. Why...? Cause I was feeling bored....

Though painting is not something I really enjoyed in my childhood.... Infact drawing or painting was never my cup of tea in childhood... Its when I was in my teens I learnt about my interest in art.... 

But in passing years by writing or making pencil sketches, or by doing pottery painting or by doing rangoli etc etc... I understood one thing... This is what makes me happy... Makes me really happy from inside... 

The only thing is....I am not regular in doing what I really love to do... Everytime I spend sometime on my interest I decide that I will regularly spare some time for my interest which makes me soo happy... But then with days it just become a thought... 

But now I decide to be always happy by spending time for myself ... For my interest... I never know when it can lead me to some opportunity... ;-)

Losing yourself to emotions....

Many times in life you try or you are being positive with things. You feel the happiness....not because something really good is happening but because you are thinking and feeling positive. 

But all of a sudden you start feeling sad for no reason. You don't show it to world but you feel it inside. This sadness takes you to all those things being taken away from you in past which you so wanted to hold on to. 

How much we think or try to remain positive but we are allowed to break down at some point. We are allowed to take our emotions out, to feel light in order to feel happy again. Even if we know all the fundas that time doesn't remain same all the time but sometimes you just cant explain this to yourself.

You are not probably upset with time or god or with people.... But you are just tired of being strong all the time... And you just want to lose yourself.... 

A place to LOVE and to be Loved....

Many times I listen to certain songs and I literally visualize some places or incidents or certain people. This really made me think that how much we relate music to our life.

Recently one evening I was driving back home and 'Edge of Desire' by John Mayers was playing on my ipod. Weather was slightly chilly, it wasn't too dark yet, average traffic was there on roads... and all of a sudden while listening to this song I almost felt like I was in UK. It took me back a year ago when I was in UK. This time of year then I was working at Microsoft and daily travelling to Swindon - Reading - Swindon. Autumn had just begun by then and I had just begun to experience UK winters. 

I used to listen to this song everyday while travelling. I love the music, I love the beats, I love the way its sung... like I can feel the desire (desire of wanting to be in UK) when I listen to this song. 

It's not just a song which reminds me of that place. There are small small things happening everyday which takes me back to that time. I become upset for a moment and then smile like it's kinda dream I am experiencing.... :-)

My friend told me once, never be upset / sad about things you love or really really want... by doing so you are sending negative vibrations to universe. Stay happy, wish, pray, have faith and believe in your dream and yourself that you love it, you want it... you gonna get it... :-)

I know visiting UK is not my top most priority at this point of time. But the feeling I have for this place is like being in love with someone for first time. It is like when you are in love with someone and you think about that person you feel butterflies in your stomach....the feeling is incredible...it brings smile on your face and happiness in your heart...

Read somewhere... 

 “You never really leave a place or person you love, part of them you take with you ,leaving a part of yourself behind.” 

and that's what happen to me when I came back to India... I brought the feelings with me of that place and left myself over there... 

My Shopping fetish....

We come across so many incidents in our day to day life... and we forget it... but someday if you are sitting and just a thought of such incident comes to your mind it makes you smile....and it makes you go in flashback  and live that moment....but it also sometimes makes you nostalgic.... as it is just a memory now...

Today someone praised my handbag and it just took me a year back...and all I could do was just smile... that funny incident of purchasing this handbag made me smile again....

A year ago... me and my bestie went for shopping to town center (as usual.. ;-)). We went to Accessorize and saw one bag... found it really attractive and wanted to buy but we decided not to buy as we felt the price was lil' high and we really didn't need a bag at that point of time... so we both looked at each other and decided not to purchase that bag and left the shop quietly...

Though we were out of that shop but that bag wasn't out of our mind... we were still discussing about that bag and convincing each other that it wasn't worth buying .. too expensive you know.. lol.... :-) after few steps we saw fashion fiesta coming towards us with the similar kinda bag in her hand... :-) Me and my bestie looked at each other and immediately turned back and went to accessorize again without even uttering a word to each other.. the acknowledgement our eyes did to each other was more than sufficient... :-)

Bestie picked up the same bag that fashionista was having and went n stood in queue for billing. I picked up the same one with different color. But was confused if I should buy it or not. I grabbed a bag and went near a billing queue and asked my friend (Just to convince myself as I knew I don't need a bag.)

Me, "I have so many bags I don't need this right?!!!"

She said, "Yes Suza, You don't need this bag you got quite a few."

(But I wasn't convinced yet as my heart was screaming .. "Don't think just buy" but My brain was saying... "Wait, think you really don't need this...")

But how many times mind take over heart... :-) "Hardly..." :-)

I asked my bestie again, "You know what, One bag has become old and another one is just okeyish... And this one isn't that expensive. All the bags I already have are almost of this price..."

And like any best friend does, "She got convinced with my point.. as we both wanted to buy that bag..."

And finally heart took over m ind ... lol... :-)... we both were immensely happy to buy those bags and laughing on our craziness that how we convinced ourselves to buy them... :-) and this small incident still makes me happy.... and reminds of my crazy times...

 we girls are crazy... once we want something we will find a reason the grab it... ;-)

Happiness is...

Recently came across a page on Facebook.... and I instantly smiled just by reading the name of the page... Name read like "The Happy Page"... :-) and when I saw the content of the page it actually made me happy...  it felt just good.... :-)

When I saw the images of this page it really made me think that we are happy in small small things but we just forget to realize it...like when I read this post.... "Happiness is new shoes.. " and I smiled... because I could so connect it to this image.. Cause every time I bought a pair of shoes... I am immensely happy... at least for next few days... I literally kiss my new shoes.... it just makes me soo much happy... :-)

But the point here is not to love my new shoes... point is... how small small day to day incidents of our life makes us happy...!!!! 

Though its 

...watching your favorite TV show

...sharing secret with your best friends

...someone saying you have lost weight

...or just a simple thought of someone

There are N number of reasons to make us smile or feel happy... its just we need to realize it... and how do we realize it...??!!!! As per my thoughts, just by living each moment of life... rather than stressing ourselves... We need to enjoy each moment we come across... and we will feel how much life is easy and all the stress and tension can be taken away with just a small feeling of being happy... :-)

It's not a rocket science but training yourself to see and feel happiness will lead you to a better life...and If not a better life then it will surely give you strength to face the tough times of our life...

I have realized over the period of time in life that... Time never remains same for long.. it changes... but not as per our convenience but as per its convenience... so just chillax, sit back and see the life happening... you stressing yourself is not going to resolve your problem... I am not saying not to do anything to resolve issues in your life... but taking stress or tension is also not going to help rather it will add on to your problems... so smile and face the challenge of life... Because every day is new... so welcome it with a smile, cause loads and loads of happiness is waiting for YOU. :-)  

Salute to Women....

Recently I happen to meet a lady... In her early 50s...tall, graceful, attractive, elegant....But when I actually started talking to her I got to know a lil' about this pretty woman...

In just 2 hours span I felt like I am seeing future me in her ( probably can't be this good...but will surely try to...) 

The fact I liked about her is she was vocal about what and how she feels and the best part was she was so young by heart, by her thoughts... A perfect combination of modern and tradition...

It was our first meeting and probably was not required to share it but she did... And that took me to surprise... She told us that she and her husband don't stay together. I could just look at her and smile but it took me in flashback.... How much I was hesitant about my marital status at such a young age. And this lady in her mid age telling so strongly about her personal life really made me think.... I couldn't imagine her state of mind while being separated from her husband when her kids are in their 20s....

It takes tremendous strength to stand where she is at this moment... I surely don't know much about her but all I know is I was absolutely mesmerized by her persona in those 2 hours... :-)

I seriously hate being compared with anyone even if its some celebrity but today somehow my mom mentioned about this lady and told me that "Supriya, I feel you are so much like her" and First time I felt happy to be compared with someone... 

I don't know if I will ever meet her but if I happen to I would like to tell her that I really respect such women who doesn't quietly tolerate things just because what society will say and take a stand for herself and her family...